As the new years looms, I find myself again overwhelmed by the challenges faced in this new phase. This year has been difficult, I'm not going to lie. I've had to cope with the harsh reality that life after high school is different. It's difficult and people change and you never see some of them again and it can suck. I've been hurt by the one person I trusted never to hurt me, and I doubt that our relationship will ever recover. I've been challenged over and over again with the fact that I am apparently horribly antisocial and the reason my social circle is so small is because I don't attend enough parties. Well to that theory I say a very loving "piss off". I happen to have some amazing people within my life, and just because I choose not to socialise with them all at the same moment does not diminish their importance to me. I still do in fact see some people from high school quite regularly, and for that I am eternally grateful. I have friends from other facets of my life, such as various churches I've attended or family friends. They have been some of the biggest influences in my life and still are, I'd be nothing without them. I've also been blessed to have met some amazing souls at university. They are all phenomenal in their own right, but one in particular has been so encouraging and inspirational, she has helped keep me writing.
But the people who have been such a blessing on my life, who at times have held me together, are those who I never expected. I don't expect anybody to understand or be able to relate to this experience, but through tumblr I have met the most amazing humans from across the globe. I feel so blessed to be able to go to these individuals for support, they have at times held me together.
So as I enter the new year, I'm going to march on forwards and not let anyone stop me. I'm not going to make pathetic resolutions that I know I won't keep. I'm going to live my life and I'll be damned if I let anyone pull me down. I may not be the most social, but it is going to be year, just watch me.
Until next year fellow humans....
