A letter to your parents

My parents actually already have a letter that I wrote for them in my letter writing month. And I don't think that I could easily say anything more loving or creative, so I'm going to try and say something else.
Mum, I know that this year has been incredibly tough for you, as was last year. I admire you so much, you're always there for those around you, for your friends and family, and I know that sometimes all you want to do is crawl into bed. You've been sick a lot this year, and I think you're so great for still getting up and going to work and doing life. You're amazing and I love you.
Dad, I miss you when you're away. You're away for work too much, take this week for instance! I know you hate going away so much, and I hate you having to go. Thank you for driving me to the station and our random lunch dates. You're a fantastic man and I actually don't mind at all that I take after you. I love you.

Until next time fellow humans....

Something you crave for a lot

Love. Jeez, that sounds super lame, but I think it's true. I think we all crave love, as much as we hate to admit it. I don't just mean love in the romantic sense, I mean love in general. Love is a necessity in this life, if I didn't have the love around me that I do, I can honestly say that I don't know where I'd be. Without blabbering on too much about love, which I tend to do a lot, I think that's all I'll say. I crave love, in all its' forms.

Until next time fellow humans....

What makes you different from everyone else

What makes me different? Nothing. I don't really think that I have any special qualities or gifts or attributes that make me unique. I write, but I'm not fantastic. I read a lot, but not as much as others. I can't dance, sing or act. I can't play any musical instruments. I'm not a confident or talented public speaker. I'm not athletic or sporty. I don't have a good memory or a way with words. I can't speak foreign languages, I'm not a photographer. I can't draw or paint or sculpt. And I don't have a wicked sense of style. I think I'm rather generic as far as human beings go. So I really have to wrack my brain to think of any different traits that I may possess.
I love people, I can't help it, and most of the time I hate it. I often go on and on about how much I dislike human beings in general, and their is some truth in that fact. But the reality is, I have this awful ability to love everyone. There are a lot of people who I don't like, who I would very much like to never see again, but I still love them. I think one of the worst things that a human being can do is hate another. I just can't do it. Some may think that loving the unlovable is an endearing trait, but it's also a pain in my ass. As much as I dislike people, I can't help but think of their positive attributes, and this drives me insane sometimes. It's a whole lot easier to be mad at someone or to dislike them when you don't like anything about them. But as soon as you find that one inkling of light, that one personable or humane characteristic, it's impossible to think of them as a lesser human being. As soon as I identify or realise or remember that someone would do anything for their daughters or they came and visited me when I was sick that one time or they did that thing for that person, I love them. I can't help it. Does that set me apart from others? I have no idea, I think it does, but I'm not sure. I think that's why I'm just an empathetic person, why I found my major work for Extension 2 English such a passion driven piece. What an empowering thing it is to love those people on the fringes of human life.

Until next time fellow humans....

A picture of something that makes you happy

I have so many pictures and photos that make me happy. Each of them represents a significant moment in my life. I have photos from New Zealand that as soon as I look at them instantly transport me back to that moment and I remember how infinite I felt. I have photos with my friends from across the years. I've captured laughter, good times but also tough times. Photographs of my family, my brothers laughing, our last Christmas with Nanna when everything was perfect and everyone got along. I have photos of myself with various well known figures who I've come across. Meeting Alexander Lewis when I was so giddy that I couldn't stop blubbering nonsense and was shaking afterwards. Meeting Lisa McCune after Nathan recognised her and grabbed her for me, she was the loveliest person I've ever met. There are photos of myself that just represent for me a moment or a comment or something good in my life. So it's been really difficult for me to pick one picture, but I think I've found a good one.
As I've stated many times, I am a massive fan of Buffy the Vampire Slayer. When I was 12 I sent a fan letter to Sarah Michelle Gellar telling her how fantastic I thought she was and how much I loved her show. After about 4 months I received a letter in the mail, it was a signed photograph. I know that it was probably just a generic one that everyone got sent, but I didn't care and I still don't. The fact that I have a signed photograph of her has always excited me beyond belief. I went absolutely crazy when I first received it, jumping and screaming, it was epic. So that is the picture that I've decided to post, because Buffy has always been such an important thing in my life.



Until next time fellow humans....

Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

Oh jeez, this is going to have to be one of those painfully honest posts I think. Well here's the thing, it is well known that I am single and I'm honestly not looking. I say that I'm not looking because as dorky and pathetic as it sounds, my heart is very much taken. I hate admitting that, I hate being gross and sappy, but there you have it folks, I'm a closet romantic. I don't like jumping the gun or counting my chickens before they hatch, or any other appropriate metaphors. I don't really see the point in making it my life's goal to marry this certain individual, but at the same time, I would very much like to. I think it's a good thing that this particular task doesn't ask me to justify my reasons for feeling this way, because if it did I think this post would be rather long. But at the same time, I kinda also want to explain my reasoning, so here I go. Their smile, it always makes me smile like a lunatic. The way they never cease to make me laugh, especially when I don't want to. Their funny little idiosyncrasies and obsessions, I find them so endearing. Their voice, the way that my heart and stomach skip when I hear it. The way that they treat me as an adult, the way we get along. Their maturity and the good advice that they give. The way that on many occasions they've made me smile when all I've wanted to do was curl up into a ball and cry. The way that they've turned me into a hopeless romantic. The way that every song I hear is about them. The way that they remember every little thing that I tell them. The fact that wanting them to be happy has always been more important that just wanting them. The fact that I would happily watch all 3 of the Jurassic Park films with them. I think I've successfully, briefly summarised my affections. So I'm going to go throw up due to this crazy amount of sap.

Until next time fellow humans....

Nicknames you have; why do you have them

Well I gave the generic nicknames that people with my name have, you wouldn't think eleanor would leave much to the imagination. So the majority of people call me Elle (pronounced Ellie) or El. My parents affectionately refer to me as Dot, which is in reference to my middle name Dorothea. Dorothea was my great grandmother's name and apparently people called her Dot. Growing up I had those stupid idiotic nicknames like Smelly Elle, really original! Now days, most people call me El, though their are exceptions. Ailsa, who I affectionately refer to as Lamp, calls me Kettle. And J Bear, my lovely Jess, calls me Little e. Then there is J Bear's partner, the ninja. The ninja calls me Writer, because that's what I do. Personally, that last two are my favourites.

Until next time fellow humans....

Plans/dreams/goals you have

One day, I will be a journalist. That is not just a plan or a dream or a goal, it is a reality. It will be my reality. I will write for The Australian. I will get married and have children, though the identity of my future spouse is yet to be known to me. I will travel the world and make mischief. I will visit the Tower of London and see where one of my historical icons was wrongly killed. I will visit Greece and Ireland, I need to explore my family heritage. I will visit New York and run wildly down Broadway, taking in every show possible. I'll hop over to San Francisco and visit Harvey Milk's camera shop. I will get my Masters and PHD. I will be happy, that I'm sure of. I'm not afraid of growing up because I have so much to look forward to.

Until next time fellow humans....

Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

Well, I could say an incredibly obvious response for me to say here. I would like to be Lisa Edelstein so that I could be Cuddy in House. If you're my friend or even know me remotely well, then you should know that I have a rather big love for Hugh Laurie and his character House. It is in my humble opinion that Lisa Edelstein is incredibly lucky in her role, so that is why I would be here for a day.

Until next time fellow humans....

Another picture of yourself

This is a photograph of me taken about 2 weeks ago, it was just after I dyed my hair dark. I have fairy lights in my room, I turn them one when I need to feel happy and like my world isn't about to crumble into a million pieces. I guess that's why they've been turned on so often lately.



Until next time fellow humans....

Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

1) Will I - Film cast of Rent
2) You've Got a Friend - Carole King
3) Little Wing [Live] - Eric Clapton & Steve Winwood
4) Science Fiction, Double Feature - Film cast of The Rocky Horror Picture Show
5) I Feel Everything - Idina Menzel
6) Need You Now - Tiffany Alvord
7) Who Do You Think You Are - Spice Girls
8) Johanna - Anthony Warlow
9) Friends Will Be Friends - Queen
10) Bop to the Top - High School Musical the Concert cast

Until next time fellow humans....

A picture of you and your family

This photograph is from our recent holiday to Queenstown, New Zealand. It was right before we went on the Shotover Jet which is why we all look ridiculous, but this holiday was amazing, so this photograph is necessary. This day I couldn't stop smiling, it was such an epic day.



Until next time fellow humans....

A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

Dear Someone who has hurt me recently

I know you don't realise what you do, but please stop. I know you don't realise how sensitive this issue is for me, and I don't want to discuss it with you because it's silly. I take it really personally the way you continually compare me to her. I get it, she's perfect and I'll never measure up! I don't need to be constantly reminded of what a failure I am. Even when you joke about, it's not funny, not even close. I already compare myself to her often enough without your help. But because of who you are, I don't want to tell you. But please, it hurts a lot.

Sincerely, eleanor

Until next time fellow humans....

How you found out about Tumblr and why you made one

I discovered Tumblr last year when Abigail posted photos on her blog that she'd found on there. I happened across several different ones and lurked them for several months before making the executive decision to create my own. And now I'm hooked!

Until next time fellow humans....

Another picture of you and your friends

Here, have some photographs of some of the other souls that occupy my life. Meet Ailsa, Victoria & Abigail.





Until next time fellow humans....

Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

Happy: It generally depends on my mood and whether I've downloaded new songs that I'm loving, so this is a general list.
Bat Out of Hell - Meat Loaf
Born to Run - Bruce Springsteen
Forever - Chris Brown
Brave - Idina Menzel
Out Tonight, Finale B - Rent Soundtrack
Love Like Crazy - Lee Brice
All Summer Long - Kid Rock

Sad: Basically, these are songs that I empathise with and may sometimes boost my mood.
Gives You Hell - Glee Soundtrack (embarrassing, I know!)
Invisible - Taylor Swift
Already Gone - Kelly Clarkson
Lift, Learn to Fly, The way She Loved Me - Shannon Noll
No One But You - We Will Rock You Soundtrack
Defying Gravity - Wicked Soundtrack
Rent, Goodbye Love, Will I - Rent Soundtrack
Wishing You Were Somehow Here Again - The Phantom of the Opera Soundtrack
Days of Plenty - Little Women Soundtrack

Bored: Whatever new music I have or whatever I feel like tuning out to.

Hyped: Music I can dance and act like an idiot to, generally songs from the happy list.

Mad: Some crossover with the sad list.
Gives You Hell - Glee Soundtrack
Picture to Burn - Taylor Swift
Since You've Been Gone - Kelly Clarkson
Before He Cheats - Carrie Underwood

Until next time fellow humans....

Something you’re proud of in the past few days

To be honest, I don't really have anything that I'm proud of recently. My friend and I had a stall at a market on Saturday to sell fair trade items, and we raised quite a good amount of money. But to be honest, I really didn't do much to help this cause, so I'm proud that money was raised, but I'm not proud because I was involved. And apart from that, I haven't done anything else lately that constitutes any proud feelings. I had to do an online quiz for university which I did well in, so I suppose that makes me proud. I've been successfully restraining myself and not telling a few people how I feel about them and where I'd like them to go, so my self control makes me proud. But in all honesty, that's it.

Until next time fellow humans....

Short term goals for this month and why

I hate setting goals for myself, mostly because I always seem to fail to reach them, so to save the disappointment I just never set them. This may be more of a long term goal, but I think because it needs to be dealt with over time it can also be short term. I just want to be a better person. I've come to the realisation that I'm really not that great, I don't have any special talents. I'm not super smart, I'm not creative, I'm not a good cook or really athletic. I'm not super nice, all I seem to contribute sometimes is the occasional sarcastic comment. I don't have many life changing passions, I don't fight for any causes. I don't really have any responsibilities in my life, I don't do anything. I go to university and also church once a week. That's it. I don't want to feel like a failure but it's rather difficult at the moment for me not to. Have you ever felt that you just don't seem to make much of an impact on the world? Like someone else could live your life better than you? So that's enough of my depressive rant, hopefully I can achieve my goal.

Until next time fellow humans....

A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

Buffy the Vampire Slayer has always been and will always be my favourite television show. Unless you've experienced what it's like to have a show impact you in this same way, I doubt that you will be able to understand what I'm talking about. I usually appear crazy when talking to others about my love and affection for this program, but when I say that I don't know where I'd be without it, I'm telling the honest truth. As the cast journeyed through high school and some progressed to college, I felt as if I was going with them. I cried when Angel and Buffy died, I cried when the series ended and Sunnydale ended up in a giant hole. I learnt the dances in Once More, With Feeling. I grew affectionate for Oz as the years progressed and lost my love for Xander. I hated some of the big bads, but adored the others. There are some episodes that I like to think don't exist, the series would be better without them. When it comes down to it, I adore this show, more than you will ever realise.



Until next time fellow humans....

Favourite super hero and why

I honestly don't care for superheroes, at all. I find all of the superhero films incredibly dull and I would honestly rather never watch them. But if I had to pick one, I would say Sailor Moon. I pick her because I grew up watching her, for no other reason. Plus I've always loved the way that the Sailor Scouts transformed into their alter egos. If the show was still televised now, I would definitely watch it.



Until next time fellow humans....

A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

This is a photo of Queenstown, New Zealand. I went there with my family in January this year for a week and it changed my life. I often talk about feeling infinite, and that was how I felt the entire week. If you skip back to my January posts you'll see just how much I loved every second of that journey. I can't adequately describe the feelings that rush through me when I think about or discuss this experience, it was truly the best week of my life.



Until next time fellow humans....

A habit that you wish you didn’t have

I have many awful habits, but do I wish that I didn't have them any more? I'm under the possibly delusional impression that my idiosyncrasies are some of the most important aspects of me. Sometimes I wish that I wasn't so picky when it comes to my love life, but at the same time, having high standards is a good thing. I wish that I wasn't so anal and obsessive compulsive when it comes to my personal hygiene. I wish that I could speak my mind more, that I wasn't so introverted. Most of the time I simply wish that I was a better person, whatever that means. But I know that I am more good than bad, and with all my faults, I have more positives.

Until next time fellow humans....

A picture of you and your friends

Well since this post requires a photo of my friends (plural) and I, I think I'm going to have to be slightly different. You see, I don't have a single photo with all my friends in it. And even then, do I just include my closest friends? This makes me slightly sad, that I don't have one tight knit group any more. But when it comes down to it, I wouldn't change my friends for anyone in the world.
So here at 3 of my stars; Zoe, Christy & Jessica.




Until next time fellow humans....

The meaning behind your Tumblr name

Well this isn't tumblr, but I shall tell you the meaning behind my name nonetheless. My tumblr name is eleanor-nerd, which is a very common alias/username that I go by. Basically, towards the end of high school, either in year 11 or 12, I decided to change my email. My old email was rather juvenile and had nothing to distinguish it as mine. So one night at Emma's house, I decided to think of one that somehow incorporated my name. My friends frequently referred to me as the nerd of the group, so eleanor_nerd was fitting. So when it came to creating a tumblr username, that was what I used. Though, if my memory serves me correctly, they wouldn't allow me to use an underscore, which is why it was replaced by a hyphen. And that is the rather dull story behind my tumblr name. Although, the name of my page, stories told, is simple in that I feel everything I post says something about me and who I am. Every picture tells a story.

Until next time fellow humans....

I have a new 30 day challenge, but it's very different. I hope it's equally as fun and equally as challenging.

A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself



1) I have an irrational but also very legitimate fear of velociraptors.
2) I will never date anyone more than a year younger than me, older guys are so much more appealing in more ways than one.
3) I hate the numbers 7, 9, 11 and 17.
4) I hate the months August and October.
5) In an ideal world, I would not be required to wear pants, or any kind of bottom clothing. The same goes for shoes.
6) I am a massive fan of Wicked, but I am sick to death of the previews on the TV advertising it. The reason I'm getting so annoyed is because the previews advertise the Sydney production, but with an American cast. As much as I love Stephanie J Block and Kendra Kassebaum, they aren't Australian.
7) I'm all for marriage equality.
8) I have my future children's names picked out, they are all beautiful names but also have personal meanings to me.
9) I really want to vote for The Greens in this upcoming federal election, except they have several points I disagree with. I'm not sure whether the negative points outweigh the positive, or vice versa.
10) I think that spelling my name with a capital letter looks really stupid, so whenever I can, I refuse to.
EDIT: I stupidly misread and though I had to post 10, not 15 facts...
11) No matter what you say, I still listen to Shannon Noll. Not only because I like his music, but because during those 2-3 years that I was obsessed with him, his music helped me more than you will ever fully realise.
12) I want 3 more body piercings.
13) I read something today and it has made me decide not to vote Labor in the upcoming election.
14) I really really really dislike The Little Mermaid. I love the songs in the Disney film, but apart from that I think that she is as weak and awful a character as Bella Swan.
15) I have a firm belief that I will never meet anyone as lovely, friendly and nice as Lisa McCune was.

Until next time fellow humans....

Apologies for being M.I.A. lately, I've had a whole bunch of stuff happening in my life, and to add to it, we reached our internet limit so I've been stuck with dial-up speed. But I make a promise to make a concerted effort to be a more diligent blogger, because I really need to hone my writing skills.
This post could be considered a sequel to an earlier post, and I guess it's also rather similar in its ideas. I was talking to a close friend recently about relationships, love and what I should be looking for in a partner. I was continually reminded throughout this day that I can't even attempt to enter into a relationship until I know what I want and am looking for. An opinion that I've long held, but seem to have neglected lately is that dating is for the intent of marriage. I have always believed that dating just for the sake of dating or to pass the time is simply selfish. But why is it that one small thing happens, that one person shows a spark of interest in me, and I lose focus? Part of it has to do with the messed up nature of my romantic interests presently, my desperate pining for someone who will probably never reciprocate these affections. And I'm sure that I'm not the only person who has reached breaking point when it comes to handling said affections. What do you do when you can no longer see the point in pursuing something, when you are sure that it will never come into fruition? Do you attempt to move on and get over it? But how can you do that if the aforementioned person is everything that you wanted in a partner? Do you simply try to find someone that is even more well suited for you, hoping that they exist? Do you forget that they exist, forget how they made you feel just by saying your name? Or do you hold on to what you know and feel, because what you feel is real and it all makes sense. Because when they're around, the lights dim everywhere else. It's an interesting idea that is really messing with my mind.

Until next time fellow humans....

"Hey Writer", quite possibly the loveliest compliment that I have ever received.

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eleanor, a 20 year old Australian. I'm introverted, socially awkward, a bit of a wallflower and prefer the company of books. I write and live in a fantasy land. I believe in love in all its forms. Harry Potter changed my life. My patronus is a unicorn.

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