1) I loved you, I really did. I would have done anything for you if you'd asked me. But you never did. I thought you were perfect, and three years on and I still can't find any faults in you. I hope you're happy, I hope you found someone to make you happy. Because you made me so indescribably happy.
2) I hope you're happy with the decisions that you've made and the people you've pushed away. After everything we went through, I thought you knew me better than all of that. Obviously not. You hurt me a lot, but I don't hate you. I don't trust you and I want nothing to do with you, but I don't hate you.
3) You are quite possibly one of the greatest human beings that I have ever known. Ever since I first laid eyes on you I knew you were different. And I was right. There's something about you that draws me to you, you're magnetic. You make me lose my breath whenever you're around. And I listen to everything you say, but then I realise I'm not paying attention because I'm too busy trying not to smile.
4) When I first met you I never would have expected that we would end up where we are. You are not what I expected, but you're amazing all the same. If someone had asked me to describe my ideal person, you would not have been even close to it. But there is something happening, and I like it. Part of me wants to pursue it, but part of me is scared. But I think you're worth it.
5) Our friendship has changed over the years, and that makes me sad. But I'm not mad at you, and I don't despise you. You were there for me during some incredibly crucial years, you held me together. If I hadn't had you, I don't know where I would have been. I will be forever grateful for everything you've done for me. You saved my life.
6) I miss you, and I hate some of the decisions you've made. It sounds crazy and selfish but I've always felt like we had a special bond. Whenever I felt stupid or like the world was against me, you never were. We've always just understood each other and I hate that you leaving will change that. I feel like you're abandoning me, I know you're not, but I can't help but think that.
7) I can't stop hurting from what you did, not just to me but to everyone. I know you think it was justified, but I think you've got rocks in your head. You were always there for me, always. And then you just left. Did you think I wouldn't care? Did you think I wouldn't miss you like crazy? I look back on everything I have of you and I get so mad and so hurt, so I can't do it any more. I prayed every night for two years that you would realise your mistake, but you never did.
8) You were always the one who clung desperately to our friendship and demanded we remain in contact. Don't get me wrong, I love you dearly and I wanted the same thing, but you were so forceful. But then you met others and seemed to forget. I'm glad you're happy, and I'm not mad. I just find it strange how easily you moved on from us.
9) Don't cling to me! I hate it when people cling to me and don't give me space. I love you and I want to spend time with you. But if you continue to cling to me I'm just going to push you away.
10) Thanks for your lack of support and back up when I needed it the most. It's nice to know that you can happily change your stance when I'm not around.
Until next time fellow humans....
