Apologies for being M.I.A. lately, I've had a whole bunch of stuff happening in my life, and to add to it, we reached our internet limit so I've been stuck with dial-up speed. But I make a promise to make a concerted effort to be a more diligent blogger, because I really need to hone my writing skills.
This post could be considered a sequel to an earlier post, and I guess it's also rather similar in its ideas. I was talking to a close friend recently about relationships, love and what I should be looking for in a partner. I was continually reminded throughout this day that I can't even attempt to enter into a relationship until I know what I want and am looking for. An opinion that I've long held, but seem to have neglected lately is that dating is for the intent of marriage. I have always believed that dating just for the sake of dating or to pass the time is simply selfish. But why is it that one small thing happens, that one person shows a spark of interest in me, and I lose focus? Part of it has to do with the messed up nature of my romantic interests presently, my desperate pining for someone who will probably never reciprocate these affections. And I'm sure that I'm not the only person who has reached breaking point when it comes to handling said affections. What do you do when you can no longer see the point in pursuing something, when you are sure that it will never come into fruition? Do you attempt to move on and get over it? But how can you do that if the aforementioned person is everything that you wanted in a partner? Do you simply try to find someone that is even more well suited for you, hoping that they exist? Do you forget that they exist, forget how they made you feel just by saying your name? Or do you hold on to what you know and feel, because what you feel is real and it all makes sense. Because when they're around, the lights dim everywhere else. It's an interesting idea that is really messing with my mind.
Until next time fellow humans....
