So I haven't blogged in a while. Frankly, I've been busy living my life. But university has ignited in me my love for writing again. One of my lecturers said that you can't call yourself a writer if you don't actually write, otherwise you're just someone who talks about writing. And I really do love to write, but I haven't been blogging because I've had nothing creative or of interest to say, but I have come to several conclusions and decisions that I would like to share with you all.
Firstly, sometimes, even if time doesn't heal all wounds, even if that wound was almost healed, it is still able to be violently ripped open again. But sometimes the act of ripping it open again, isn't the part that hurts, it's how to decide to treat it that can cause the most damage. Whether you decide to venture forward and let it heal itself, potentially causing an abundance of pain, or whether you seal it up once and for all, that can be the determining factor.
Secondly, sometimes there is only so much stretching and twisting and pulling that you can do to someone to try and make them fit in your life. As humans, we see the world through rose coloured glasses that accentuate a person's strengths, and minimises their flaws. But sometimes, you can stretch a person's good traits; their personality and sense of humour to cover their flaws only so much before it snaps and tears and your rose coloured glasses are shattered. It may seem pessimistic, but I'd rather see a person as the shattered mess that they may be, then an over-stretched piece of work.
Thirdly, as much as I used to hate to admit it, who am I kidding? Of course university is going to change me. Now don't misunderstand me, I LOVED my high school, I loved my teachers and my experiences there. But I know that it is time for me to be out in the "big bad world". I can't live in a bubble forever, and I know that staying sheltered won't do me any favours. So I'm a 19 year old university student who is learning about the media industry, how it works and how I can fit into it. I have 7 piercings, pink hair and my own sense of style. And frankly, I'm so freaking excited to see what the next 4 years of my life hold.
Fourthly, there is no way that I am ready for marriage or family yet. I am not getting married OR engaged while I'm at university. I'm happy to date, but don't expect to be getting down on bended knee anytime soon. And I don't want to have kids straight after marriage. I want to have a life first, I want to travel and fall in love, have crazy adventures and get lost in far off places. I don't want a mortgage, a baby, a husband and a new career before I'm 25. No thank you.
So those are my realisations, take them or leave them. I'm rather excited for what my future has in store.
Until next time fellow humans....
