So tonight I've decided to make a list of confessions, some are rather personal, just to give you an insight into what makes me tick. I'm blogging it because there's no way I can vlog about anything this serious haha.
1) I have an irrational but completely serious fear of the
Jurassic Park films. I have seen scores of horror and thriller films, yet these are the only ones that frighten the shite out of me. I cannot watch them. And I will not watch them with you, so don't bother asking.
2) I have a fan girl crush on Rob Mills. Even when people tell me he's gross or remind me that he slept with Paris Hilton, I honestly don't care one bit.
3) When I say I hate the
Twilight series and Edward Cullen, I'm not saying it to be controversial whilst secretly harboring a love of both. I honestly think that the
Twilight series is poorly written with a vocabulary of a 6 year old with obvious grammatical, punctuation and spelling errors. It was also incredibly predictable and unoriginal. I also think it's awful because of how it glorifies abusive relationships, suicide and pedophilia. Edward Cullen is abusive and gives vampires a bad name, vampires do not sparkle you silly girls.
4) I love my friends, but there are some who I know I won't remain in contact with. That thought really upsets me, but it's inevitable.
5) I bottle things up too much. The last time I bottled everything up inside me, I ended up screaming at someone and telling them I hated them. It was especially bad because this person has been one of the constant sources of support and love in my life, and I'm fairly sure always will be. I guess it's true that you hurt the people who mean the most to you. I was and still am incredibly sorry. But they forgave me, which showed me how much they did care.
6) I think that getting drunk is not a sign of age or maturity, it's a sign of immaturity.
7) I love watching Nathan getting chased by giant purple hippos down Oxford Street. Actually, I just love giant purple hippos. Nathan is an added bonus. ;-)
8) I felt lost when I finished reading the 7th
Harry Potter novel. Partly because I was crying my eyes out (and spent the next few hours in that state), but also because it was over. Not only was Harry grown up, but so was I.
9) I'm not musical, I can't read music or play any instruments, and I can't sing even moderately well. But it is my dream to write a musical and have it on Broadway.
10) I talk to inanimate objects too much. I once tried to have an unsuccessful conversation with a rooster. I also talk to the three stuffed monkeys that live on my bed. At work on the weekend I started screaming at the espresso machine.
11) I pretend I don't care, but the truth is, I do, I really do. I ruined something that could've been great. I'm going to try and fix it, but I'm so scared. I just wish I knew how to start. I miss him so incredibly much.
